http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/ Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, but she did it backwards and in high heels. en Copyright 2008 Wed, 07 May 2008 22:14:01 -0400 http://www.sixapart.com/movabletype/ http://www.rssboard.org/rss-specification
I had, what I was hoping will be my last, pre-natal appointment yesterday. Doctor said everything looked ok and the heart beat was great. Before leaving he asked if we should do an internal exam just to see how things were going and IF I was at around 2cm dilated then he could do the stripping the membranes to bring on labour. Well, lo and behold I was at 4cm and 90% effaced. Surprise! So he proceeds with the stripping *OMFG hurt like effing hell - I started sobbing in Phil's shoulder after the doctor left the room. Felt extremely violated....* and he lets us know that labour should start within 24 hours. Hurray! Finally the end of all this kicking in the ribs nonsense. Phil was over the moon and I started panicking about the pain that was assured to come.

Phil was getting a little antsy around 6 this evening so we packed up the car seat and the bags and headed off to the hospital to see if anything had changed at all. After being on the fetal monitor for 20-25 minutes and being manually checked *still painful* we were sent home disappointed; no change since yesterday, waters nowhere near being torn and just a general "come back when you're tearing out the dashboard in pain". Phil is happy and can now relax knowing the baby is ok. I for one thought it was the biggest waste of my time, not to mention a terrible reason to wake me from my momma slumber.... *growl*

So it is now 10pm; 30 hours have passed and all I've seem to have done is sleep, pee more today than I have in the past month and have a little gas. Seriously people; I highly doubt that is what labour has to bring. I'm expecting pain; LOTS of it. Bone crushing, hair tearing, doubling over menstrual like pains!! BRING IT ON! But I'm sad to say I'm a little disappointed. From what I can tell - and from what I've read on the net - the stripping did not succeed in bringing on labour and I am now forced to reckon with nature. ]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2008/05/labouring-on-disappointment.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2008/05/labouring-on-disappointment.php Baby Wed, 07 May 2008 22:14:01 -0400
I've decided that I'm going to start my garden. I had planned all along to make my own baby food (come on people it is possible! I don't mind the work!) and now that all the snow is gone I can finally get the creative juice flowing for how I want it set up. I also want to try and plant as many nutritious, yummy, organic foods as possible so I don't get tired of tomatoes and cucumbers. Mmmmmmmm butternut squash. Anyway. All I need now are the baby jars.....
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]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2008/03/me-dance-in-a-tutu.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2008/03/me-dance-in-a-tutu.php Misc Sat, 15 Mar 2008 15:21:06 -0400
The pregnancy is going along smoothly and my doctor seems to be very happy with everything including my weight gain, which up to now has been completely minimal. Honestly, I've only gained about 12 pounds and I'm 7 months along. Beat that JLo! I've been feeling really good but the fatigue is driving me a little crazy. Phil seems to think that it's something other than pregnancy which is causing it but every time we ask the doctor he says it's normal. As I progress, it's getting harder and harder to keep my yawns at bay but I'm hoping that once the baby comes I'll get some energy back. The baby seems to be enjoying the confines of my rib cage because that seems to be its favourite place to be. Sitting on the couch is really uncomfortable and my bra digs into the same places. No matter what I do there's no convincing Baby to budge lower.

I haven't gotten any more excited than when we first found out. I'm not sure what to think of this other than I'm going to go into mass panic on the arrival date and let loose a whole pandemonium of emotions. Who doesn't though? I do get a little fluttery when I look in the baby's room - since it's been finished we've kept the door closed to prevent Vader from taking a liking to the crib (we've failed miserably in that respect - every chance he gets to be in that room he heads straight for that uber cute Pooh comforter) and so it's not right in your face when you get upstairs. I'll post some pictures later. I am happy there's no doubt about that but don't hate me cause I have a meh attitude towards it....
]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2008/02/it-seems-that-the-reason.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2008/02/it-seems-that-the-reason.php Baby Tue, 19 Feb 2008 18:23:31 -0400
Ability Scores:
Strength- 11
Dexterity- 11
Constitution- 11
Intelligence- 14
Wisdom- 13
Charisma- 12

Alignment:
Lawful Neutral- A lawful neutral character acts as law, tradition, or a personal code directs him. Order and organization are paramount to him. He may believe in personal order and live by a code or standard, or he may believe in order for all and favor a strong, organized government. Lawful neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you are reliable and honorable without being a zealot. However, lawful neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it seeks to eliminate all freedom, choice, and diversity in society.

Race:
Halflings are clever, capable and resourceful survivors. They are notoriously curious and show a daring that many larger people can't match. They can be lured by wealth but tend to spend rather than hoard. They prefer practical clothing and would rather wear a comfortable shirt than jewelry. Halflings stand about 3 feet tall and commonly live to see 150.

Primary Class:
Druids- Druids gain power not by ruling nature but by being at one with it. They hate the unnatural, including aberrations or undead, and destroy them where possible. Druids receive divine spells from nature, not the gods, and can gain an array of powers as they gain experience, including the ability to take the shapes of animals. The weapons and armor of a druid are restricted by their traditional oaths, not simply training. A druid's Wisdom score should be high, as this determines the maximum spell level that they can cast.

Secondary Class:
Sorcerers- Sorcerers are arcane spellcasters who manipulate magic energy with imagination and talent rather than studious discipline. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Sorcerers know fewer spells than wizards do an acquire them more slowly, but they can cast individual spells more often and have no need to prepare their incantations ahead of time. Also unlike wizards, sorcerers cannot specialize in a school of magic. Since sorcerers gain their powers without undergoing the years of rigorous study that wizards go through, they have more time to learn fighting skills and are proficient with simple weapons. Charisma is very important for sorcerers; the higher their value in this ability, the higher the spell level they can cast.

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]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/12/what-dd-character-are-you.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/12/what-dd-character-are-you.php maddy D&D character test Sat, 22 Dec 2007 12:33:06 -0400
We arrived at the hospital and after going through the whole mess of registering and finding the damn room we were called in. I had been drinking some water at this point having stupidly relieved myself before leaving and was hoping that the technician would not notice that I was not quite "filled to bursting". Apparently, they can tell because they zero in on the bladder as soon as the procedure starts. And then there it was. The baby. Our baby. Jumping around like some freak on a leash looking strangely like a shadow puppet. Definitely the coolest thing I've seen in a long time. So anyway, after some grumbling from the tech she says that I'm not full enough and go have a date with the water fountain. Mean techie.....

The second time around (with the nicest matronly tech ever... we luvs her!) the baby was sleeping so the whole picture taking part was easier however she found 'something'. Now that's probably not the best way to describe it. They go prodding around my belly with the ultrasound stick when suddenly this huge gray circled area shows up on our monitors. So we're all like "what's that?". Matronly techie runs off to talk to the radiologist and comes back to let us know that he'll look at it and that's where we're sent on our merry way to contemplate jam and toast and baby diapers. Oh yeah they said; "We'll call you!". How reassuring.

Now yesterday I had my follow up with the OB/GYN and he says it's a cyst or a growth on my ovary; but they're not sure. Guess we'll find out in December at my follow up ultrasound. Why are doctors so vague? Must be a mandatory class at med school......I'll keep everyone posted on the outcome of this little 'find'.

In happier news, look at our little mini us in progress!

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Amazing you say? Not really. If I could have picked one moment in time NOT to have a kid, it would be right now. While everyone says "But you're married, you have the house and picket fence and everything! Now's the perfect time to have kids!!" Blah blah... Let's break it down a bit shall we? First, yes we've been married for over two years and while it hasn't been perfect it's been nice. Still we're working out some stuff... Second, we bought a house in May. Best possible thing to happen? Perhaps, but no doubt the source of our financial hemorrhage and of some of the "stuff" we're working out. And finally third, I feel that I'm still too young to be a parent. Finding out on your 24th birthday that you're going to be a mother is perhaps the least surprising aspect one would like to have on such a momentous occasion.

Maybe I should add a fourth. Now that I've gotten over the initial shock and denial, I have idealized my 'motherhood' to something akin to fiction. I would love to have a natural, no medication birth. *Will likely not happen... I'm a suck when it comes to pain* I want to raise my child vegetarian for the first years of its life and while that wont be difficult for myself because I'm a veggie; my parents have completely different views and may sneak in meat while my back is turned to clean up some messy puke or poop mess in the other room. *May be easier than I'm making it out to be*. I want to teach my kid sign language at a young age *Clichéd but could be fun and I enjoy learning new things; couldn't help if the kid could tell me what it wants instead of screaming...* Finally, I'm not a complete hippie when it comes to the environment but I would love to have cloth diapers. *Could end up being disastrous but at least I know how to use them; I remember changing my both my brothers poopie cloth diapers... could also help with the unnecessary bloodshed of our precious dollars*. While I'm sure there are things I could still mention to you, I still need to get a better and more realistic view of 'mommy life' before even attempting anything foolish like baby yoga and 're-birthing' sessions.
]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/10/quick-recap.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/10/quick-recap.php Baby Sun, 14 Oct 2007 11:29:06 -0400 Welcome to my new blog powered by Movable Type. This is the first post on my blog and was created for me automatically when I finished the installation process. But that is ok, because I will soon be creating posts of my own! http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/08/i-just-finished-installing-mov.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/08/i-just-finished-installing-mov.php Updates Sun, 26 Aug 2007 22:41:43 -0400 Be the first 10 people to respond to this entry and I will reply with the following... 1. I'll respond with something random about you. 2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you. 3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in. 4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me. 5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you. 6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of. 7. I'll ask you something that i've always wondered about you. 8. You MUST put this into your journal (if you haven't already). http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/03/la-la-laaaaa.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/03/la-la-laaaaa.php Misc Thu, 29 Mar 2007 08:08:16 -0400 Yup yet another one... I actually don't mind doing some of these, they let me look at myself a little closer! http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/01/quiz.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2007/01/quiz.php maddy Tue, 30 Jan 2007 23:34:21 -0400 The year is over, The year was long. Please don't mind My Year End song! You know you need a good stiff drink when........ Happy New Year everyone! http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/12/year-end.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/12/year-end.php maddy Sun, 31 Dec 2006 17:51:09 -0400 DeviantArt page... I however have both. I opened my account a little while ago and upload some pretty ancient art of mine. Lame I know, but I'm a sheep....]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/12/dev-alot.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/12/dev-alot.php maddy Sun, 17 Dec 2006 22:49:11 -0400 potentially move to Montreal... not too sure how I feel about that). *phew* So many things are going on that my head is spinning in a million different directions, but they are all good things so it's not that bad. The only bad things are that I've been seriously binging on candy for a while now. Not because I'm hungry or need the sugar or anything, it's just there. I keep Werthers and Reisens and Jube Jubes in my desk drawer and just snatch them up every two seconds only to feel completely gross the second I swallow them. That definitely sounds like an eating disorder. Isn't that scary? To consider yourself as having a disorder? I really don't think I have one it just sounds like one (cause you know EDs are serious illnesses not needing me to poke at or joke about....). It might just be the stress and the holidays..... I'm due for a photo update. I figure I'll do it in the new year and compare it to this years photo although, I still think there's lots of room for improvement in the New Year..... :S Will this madness ever end? BTW... I was also getting tired of the layout. This on is still not my design, but it has a little more holiday flavour than other one... Can you spot the snowflakes?]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/12/yultide-update.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/12/yultide-update.php Misc Tue, 12 Dec 2006 22:23:53 -0400 official countdown for Christmas (I should have done this yesterday) but I thought it would be nice to say something at all. I was working on the 25th and got my first "Merry Christmas". A whole month before the actual day and a whole 6 days before December... and there's not even any snow! I don't understand why "The Holiday Season" has to start so early in the year; I'm sick of it already. Now if you've known me for a while or at least known me through a holiday, you'll understand where I'm coming from in terms of why holidays suck and that I actually HATE Christmas (if you worked in a mall year round and saw Christmas trees in October you'd be sick of it too.....). So, I've decided that this year I will not put up the tree. I refuse too. It's too much of a bother, I'm not home to enjoy it, I have no time to put it up/take it down, plus the cat would probably eat it. So I'm not doing it. Phil and I have decided that the presents will be going on the arm chair in the corner of the living room and that's it. No lights, no wreaths, no baubbles, no creepy Santas in the window or on the lawn. Probably going to be the easiest and most enjoyable Holiday ever... or at least that's what I'm dreaming. I'm not even panicked that I haven't started shopping yet and I'm not worried about it. I'll get to it eventually. I just like to sit around and laugh at everyone who dishes out too much money for one stupid day. *sigh* I'm turning into a disgruntled old marm aren't I?]]> http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/11/and-so-the-countdown-begins.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/11/and-so-the-countdown-begins.php Misc Sun, 26 Nov 2006 23:55:49 -0400 So yesterday I officially became a model; had to sign the model release and everything. Nothing professional just for a friend of mine who's in photography at school. It was fun but exhausting. Holy crap! I have a new respect for real models... well not really, they're still skinny bitches who make more money than I ever will. But anyway, nothing will make you feel better (or worse...) about your weight than partial nude modeling... http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/11/modelling-what.php http://www.maddymaba.com/blog/2006/11/modelling-what.php maddy Mon, 13 Nov 2006 12:56:52 -0400