Quick recap

So I've been on and off the web world for a while now and though I cannot guarantee that my blogging habits will improve I hope to share the little bits and pieces of my new life now; Mythos and I found out in September that we were going to be parents.

Amazing you say? Not really. If I could have picked one moment in time NOT to have a kid, it would be right now. While everyone says "But you're married, you have the house and picket fence and everything! Now's the perfect time to have kids!!" Blah blah... Let's break it down a bit shall we? First, yes we've been married for over two years and while it hasn't been perfect it's been nice. Still we're working out some stuff... Second, we bought a house in May. Best possible thing to happen? Perhaps, but no doubt the source of our financial hemorrhage and of some of the "stuff" we're working out. And finally third, I feel that I'm still too young to be a parent. Finding out on your 24th birthday that you're going to be a mother is perhaps the least surprising aspect one would like to have on such a momentous occasion.

Maybe I should add a fourth. Now that I've gotten over the initial shock and denial, I have idealized my 'motherhood' to something akin to fiction. I would love to have a natural, no medication birth. *Will likely not happen... I'm a suck when it comes to pain* I want to raise my child vegetarian for the first years of its life and while that wont be difficult for myself because I'm a veggie; my parents have completely different views and may sneak in meat while my back is turned to clean up some messy puke or poop mess in the other room. *May be easier than I'm making it out to be*. I want to teach my kid sign language at a young age *Clichéd but could be fun and I enjoy learning new things; couldn't help if the kid could tell me what it wants instead of screaming...* Finally, I'm not a complete hippie when it comes to the environment but I would love to have cloth diapers. *Could end up being disastrous but at least I know how to use them; I remember changing my both my brothers poopie cloth diapers... could also help with the unnecessary bloodshed of our precious dollars*. While I'm sure there are things I could still mention to you, I still need to get a better and more realistic view of 'mommy life' before even attempting anything foolish like baby yoga and 're-birthing' sessions.